Anything.

Hello, this is what I’ve been up to.
It’s been crazy crazy crazy, but things are happening and I’m so super excited!
I have many things in my brain that need straightening (:

Ever after.

I guess the reality of life gets lost on someone like me. Even after all these years of riding this rollercoaster and seeing that romance, love and life isn’t all that the fairytales cut it out to be, I am still such a sop for happy endings. Yeahyeah, call me unrealistic and hopeless helpless romantic, I still want to be that girl that finds her prince charming and lives her happily ever after.

Some[how]one.

Love to sit and talk
For just that little while
To listen and to understand
Look into the eyes
That say everything about
Your beating heart
That smile along with
Upturned lips
Moments for keeps
All too familiar
There isn’t a difference
Between silence and noise
Swallow back bittersweet
You know, you’re sure
What will be, will be.

Emo music for tonight.

Here I stand
Fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says
And how I really feel
And here I stand
Wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same
The same as I do

-Marie Digby, Voice on the Radio

Grace.

You know how they say that you’ve gotta take a leap and make a move that maybe you’ve never tried before. Perhaps it’ll work out totally opposite to what you expected, and then, you realise that risk, isn’t such a hard thing after all.

I got a job offer which I never thought I’d get, but had to turn them down, did the responsible person thing, as L calls it. On the other hand, it be crazy cool, too crazy cool, to spend 4months in the snow.

Now the prospect of moving halfway around the world to the other side seems more and more tangible everyday. I suppose it is a once in a lifetime thing that I might never get to do ever again, but honestly, I’m scared. I’m not scared of change, I love change in fact. I’m not sure what scares me, actually.

Sigh, Your grace overflows. You’re all I hold onto. Cos’ I don’t know what else I can cling to with my life.

Blackbird, fly.

You are my song in the morning
My lullaby in the night
The solid rock on which I hold onto
On Your wings I will soar
In You I find my freedom
You are my inspiration

Take these broken wings
And learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

-The Beatles, Blackbird

You have no idea…

how much it would mean,
how amazing it would be,
how much I need that,
how much I do, and wished you did.
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back to wanderlust.
It’s the usual, everywhere but here.

Rust.

I am perpetually checking my email, hoping for that ONE email that will make my day. Like perpetually I mean refreshing the page tenthousandtimes [yes I know gmail does it auto] kinda way. I have till Tuesday, and I’m really praying veryveryveryhard. That aside, I’m glad I’m taking chances I never would have a year ago, cos I am getting somewhere with them. I know I still have a long way to go, there is no time to get a bighead but to keep learning and knowing that I am incredibly blessed. And to be thankful. Whatever has turned to ash, I can only pray will become beautiful once again.

Rooftop shoutouts.

Inspiring rain
Falls from heavy skies
Soaking every part
Head to toe
I shout out
From the rooftop
Everything I need
Want to say
Cos I know
That no one can
Hear anyway
I’ll just pretend
Like I do
Took the chance
Made the leap
Faith enough
I hope you heard
My tiniest whisper
In your heart
From mine

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