20.

You are the reason I live.
There’s none other.
For 20 years, I thank You, for everything.

You still amaze me.

Made the leap,
Took the fall,
You’re at the end
To catch me.
All I need to know.
I pray you are
More than
Worth it.
For with You,
I am complete

Fall

into the emptiness that is the space in between us to break this division erase and bring us together again And I thought when you had something good you never let it go Cos I’m not sure when I could feel that sort of happiness once more They say that we’ve both have to want it that much My world’s closing in on the inside But I guess I could fake the smiles when I’m breaking inside You are my only hope Please be there please be here Catch and hold me when I fall

When God…

…wants to put His point across to you very loudly and clearly, He puts you in the most bizzare of scenarios just to prove His point.

Here and now.

Here and now/ Here in this moment/ Here and now/ I turn to You/ All that my searching heart has longed for can be found/ Cos You’re in this moment/ Here and now

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Faces, spaces, places. You, you. Perhaps and maybe.

Love, actually, again.

Mingdao and Claire, Foochow Methodist Church, 5 Jan, 2008.

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It’s midnight, raining outside, and my computer whirs away, filling the silence. I’ve just gotten off the phone, smiling away to myself at the little wonders of this smallworldafterall. Like I said, I don’t believe in coincidences. There are reasons why people are brought into your life, reasons why they stay and walk with you. And for that, I’m thankful. Cos honestly, I don’t know how to do this on my own. Nursing a cold at home, and sleeping more than I really ought to has given me time on my own, to pray and ponder the uncertainties that hit me in my face every now and again, more constantly now then ever. Through my sniffles and throat clearing, I keep asking where He wants me to be, what He wants from me right now. My sometimesoons have somewhat turned to dust, for now anyway, and I believe that You meant for it to be this way, but…

Faith, hope and love. Patience my dear child.

Okay God. If that’s what You’re saying, I’ll wait.

Watch and wait.

Tired, and don’t know where to begin to start. I will find my rest in You.

Turnaround.

Done this too many times

Walked on by

Without knowing and left wondering

Gonna take a chance

Crash and fall

Hold on

Listen

Wait

For silence to melt the air

Between two places

Find

Hope

Stop the spinning

Slow dance

Burning hearts

Reasons for Seasons.

It’s been one long year, and it hasn’t been an easy ride. But I must say that I’ve had my up-est and down-est times probably in the span of this really crazy year. Thankyou to those, that have been constantly by my side, helping me along while I learn to walk, encouraging me when the going gets tough; etc. The year ends, with a whole host of festive season, therefore the lack in entries. While cliche, with the end of a year, comes a new season, for learning, sharing and a bit more growing up. I’m going to enjoy myself while final year looms ahead of me with all of its uncertainties. I will, surely hold onto Him, and have faith. Meanwhile, to all of you, I’m rather slack this year in terms of cards and presents and such, but here’s wishing you a merry christmas, never forget the real reason for this season, keep it in your heart always, and a very happy new year(:

Muchlove.

[L].

i. It’s a Saturday afternoon, I’m left alone to my thoughts, my room, my music, mr. maton, and the pittpattering of the rain against my window. It’s nice a cold, although I think I might actually be coming down with something. The throat’s feeling a little uncomfy.

ii. It’s semi exciting to be starting ‘work’ so to speak. Some part of me is really getting into this whole, 9-6, weekender thing. The other part, wants to take the time spent at work to do other things. Why can’t we be in two places at once?

iii. I wish I would stop thinking so much. Or rather think a little harder before.

iv. It is indeed, beautiful on a rainy day.

v. I wish I could say all the things that I should say, say them loud, say them clear, for the whole wide world to hear. Or maybe just… sigh.

vi. I’m learning, and running on. Reflections on 2007: next.